Day 7
It’s been a week already but I don’t think I’ve change.
During this week I took so many notes to myself and that’s makes me wonder if the notes will get much of my attention.
After these several days I learnt and trying to do so many things in my life. I want my own happiness and someone told me I have to work it for myself. Stupid huh, I have to had someone told me what to do for something like that. But somehow lately that’s like who I am. Anyway, she gave me this ‘task’ so I can move and start grabbing my own life.
Since that I start to take a note and trying to do something.
I start to look for a way to make peace with myself. And how easy it can be? ><
It’s not but I do realize that is the important thing if I want to get out from this ‘dark me’.
Then I learn to be able with that I have to learn to feel good about myself first, and learn to have positive mind, to have self-control, stay focus and keep walking.

I was thinking if I’m able to make peace with myself, I can be a better me, even become a good person.
But then in these several days, I got a test already -.-
And guess what, I fail so miserably. I lost control, I can’t keep my positive mind and I definitely can’t feel good about myself. I called it as failed at 3 steps at once. Such a failure!
But then because of this failure, I see something wrong in me again. That I was never be a good friend to everyone especially my best friend. Then now my new task is added, learn to be a real good friend.
But this time I got lost. How to be a real good friend?
That question sounds ridiculous right? I’ve been making friends since I was in kinder garden, why on earth I don’t know how to be a real good friend? Then how can I survive all this time?
Have I never a good one since back then?